TL;DR
I have let my childish desire for friends (validation) to get the better of me. From now on, I will solely focus on enjoying my time playing Genshin.
The PTSD of Unhealthy Elitism
Genshin is the first mainstream entertainment that I deeply fond of. It feels good to be a part of a community. You get to interact with people that share your interests. More than anything, it feels good to get the validation for what you like.
This is the root of the problem with the online discourse of Dehya for me.
I like her a lot.
So when almost everyone is trashing her, I take it personally. Where I should've known better.
Dehya's kit has problems, I get it. But does it matter? For some it does. No, for A LOT of people, it kinda does. But not for me. There is a feeling of disconnect, that everyone else is actually playing a different game. There is a feeling of being left out. I'm feeling alone. Again.
While all I want is just... Friends.
A Different Game
So the question comes down to: Do I really enjoy my time playing Genshin using Dehya? I have to be honest. Yes it's fun.
Let's try to list things I like about playing using Dehya:
- I enjoy building her.
- I enjoy her burst animation.
- I enjoy finding out how she works.
- I enjoy trying to build a team around her.
- I enjoy her running animation.
- I like her normal attack chain.
- I like burning the area with her skill (wow, forest fire)
- I was amazed that she almost can't die.
Now, me enjoying this should be the most important thing. Getting people to agree with me shouldn't matter. At all.
Now to those people playing a different game, this might look like copium (GOD I hate that word). But the fact that we are playing a different game should be a hint. The reality is, for the game that I do play, there is no copium.
Because there is nothing to cope with in the game that I play. There is no race to get the highest damage at all cost. There are no pressure to get 36 stars on Abyss right here right now. None at all.
I repeat, in the game that I play, there are no pressure to get 36 stars on Abyss, right here, right now.
On Dealing with Community Interactions
So what do I do with this situation? For one, I should stop caring for what people say. I should stop grappling for that sweet.. sweet validation that my values are approved by the crowd. I should just act like an adult.
This is going to be the last time I address the Dehya controversy. In the future when I talk about Dehya, it will be all just sharing. Maybe some discussion about lore, or some happy moments when I get more constellations, or even my disappointment in her mechanics.
Yes, I do have some disappointments. Lol. But I don't go around whining about it. (I do whine about not having friends, tho. My bad.)
Until that time, see you around!